I’m literally crying right now. I CAN’T FIGURE OUT WHY THE ALGORITHM ISN’T WORKING WHEN MY LOGIC IS THE SAME AS OTHER PEOPLE’S LOGIC AND THEIR CODE IS WORKING. AND THIS IS DUE TONIGHT. LIKE I’ve worked on this lab since the day it’s been posted and I STILL CAN’T FIGURE OUT what’s wrong with it.
I hate my major.
Like all I can do is cry into my stuffed animals and stare at my code until I figure out what’s wrong with it for the next six hours.
I want to drop out of school and study art. Make animated movies. Pursue something beautiful and a life of excitement and creativity, a life that doesn’t dull.
But I’m here, studying something I don’t like, because I thought I’d be okay with that instead and because I was pushed to have a “normal” job that “brings in the money” by basically everyone in my family.
Yet I don’t do anything to fix this. Because of money. Because of the copious amounts of money I’ve spent at this school. Because I’m blessed to be able to come to college in the first place, so I can’t just quit. Because I’m honestly scared if what I want to do will be enough to pay bills in the future.
I hate money.